“Why Didn’t You Scream?”

Trigger Warning for Rape

A multiple-assault survivor recounts how she was raped by a college friend while high, then raped multiple times by a different friend during the interim between when she reported the first rape and when her school eventually held a hearing about the incident.

Each night, I have nightmares. I don’t remember the last time I slept more than two hours in a row without waking up; crying, shallow breaths, dreaming about being raped, being assaulted, or imagining my friends in these situations. Some people wonder why I stay up so late.

I sleep with the lights on now.